Jan 23 2008

If you’re looking for a destination for Stupid-Hajj, I think I’ve found Stupid-Mecca.

Category: Personal, Rantingmav @ 12:01 am

God dammit.

Listen, I’m a fat guy. I’ve been a fat guy for my entire life. At this point I could lose over half my body weight and not be at an unhealthy weight. It has dramatically affected me emotionally and made me basically a worthless person. Even if I’m not, I’ve been so utterly convinced that I am that the reality of it no longer matters anymore, because only the mental image remains.

Now society tears us all down, for one reason or another, but the visual is the sense we rely on the most, and the first to be exploited by people who would abuse us, drag us down. So I understand why the weak and worthless pick on fat people.

Regardless, I’ve got so much hate to give at this point in my life if I started killing the innocent now I’m pretty sure I could exhaust the world’s population and still have enough hate left over to keep our sun burning for an extra billion years or so.

And this sort of shit just makes it worse. It’s not good to be fat. Ever. Even if you have a medical condition that makes you fat, and losing weight is exceptionally hard for you, it’s still not good. Ever. You can accept it, you can live with it, but the second you judge yourself in a positive light simply because you’re fat you become no better than those who judge you in a negative light for being fat.

In short: you’re either worth something, or you’re not. Your weight should have no bearing on the matter whatsoever. Anybody that says otherwise, either way, is a fucking moron.

Curiously, I think I’ve just proved my own worthlessness.


Jan 15 2008

The Internet, or How People are Fraggin’ Evil

Category: Rantingmav @ 10:46 pm

So I’m dicking around reading my RSS feeds and I stumble upon Penny Arcade’s update for the day. I don’t know who the fuck Kevin McCullouch is so I start digging. Turns out he’s the kind of right-wing wacky Fundie that probably endorses Huckabee. A few days previous he wrote this bundle of insanity jumping up gamers’ asses for being a bunch of liberal sex-addicted retards.

I’ve been obsessing about the ‘08 election lately too and that’s going to stop right now.

There’s no intelligent debate anymore. We as a people have completely lost the ability to discuss an issue intelligently and dispassionately. It’s really quite frustrating, and usually ends in nothing but a batch of insults. Ideally, everybody should leave a debate smarter, whether their position changed or not. That doesn’t mean anything anymore.

For atheists such as myself, I’m not sure why this is happening, but if I’m any example it’s because we get frustrated at anything that drops into the broad category of “stupid,” which roughly defined illogical + lack of common sense.

I can’t explain the inanity of the religious. The only thing I can think of is that thousands of years the religious as a people have come to be so defined by their persecution that they are either unable or unwilling to abandon it. More’s the pity, really; nothing worse than taking a religion about peace (pick your favorite, most of the Western religions are equally bad) and turning it into a set of guidelines for how and who to hate.

Curiously, while I was reading all this bullshit, I happened to be watching Passing Through Gethsemane, Babylon 5 Season 3 Episode 4. It’s a really interesting episode that expands on the storyline of Brother Theo and his monks. They are Christian, but the expansion of humans into space and discovery of hundreds of alien races throws their faith into a tailspin. So they leave Earth and take up residence on Babylon 5 in order to discuss religion with the other alien races in an attempt to figure out how Jesus fits into the universe, as it were. One of their order, Edward, is revealed to be a serial killer who, after being mindwiped as punishment for his crime, seeks out their order as part of his replacement personality’s need to fulfill the public good.

Yeah, I know, it’s a little ridiculous, but it’s science fiction. Same old story, new window dressing.

So the people who were victimized by this killer-turned-monk track him down, cause him to relive his killings (keep in mind that now he thinks he is a truly religious, peaceful man) and eventually murder him in cold blood.

Garibaldi, Sheridan and Brother Theo find him while he is barely alive. Brother Theo comforts Edward during the last moments of his life by praying for him.

This very moving scene was written by an atheist. In fact, here’s a piece of JMS wisdom direct from the Lurker’s Guide:

“The themes of faith and forgiveness were worthy of a theologian. Are you sure there isn’t something you’d like to tell us?”

Never shoot pool at a place called Pop’s. Never eat food at a place called Mom’s. The difference between horses and humans is that they’re too smart to be on what *we’ll* do.

And I have lost people. Too many people. Lost them to chance, violence, brutality beyond belief; I’ve seen all the senseless, ignoble acts of “god’s noblest creature.” And I am incapable of forgiving. My feelings are with G’Kar, hand sliced open, saying of the drops of blood flowing from that open wound, “How do you apologize to them?” “I can’t.” “Then I cannot forgive.”

As an atheist, I believe that all life is unspeakably precious, because it’s only here for a brief moment, a flare against the dark, and then it’s gone forever. No afterlives, no second chances, no backsies. So there can be nothing crueler than the abuse, destruction or wanton taking of a life. It is a crime no less than burning the Mona Lisa, for there is always just one of each.

So I cannot forgive. Which makes the notion of writing a character who CAN forgive momentarily attractive…because it allows me to explore in great detail something of which I am utterly incapable. I cannot fly, so I would write of birds and starships and kites; I cannot play an instrument, so I would write of composers and dancers; and I cannot forgive, so I would write of priests and monks and minbari….

Like Joe, I’m not capable of believing in real life anymore. I can believe in stories, in music, but I don’t hold out much hope that humans can be decent, peaceful people anymore. There’s just too much animosity, and those of us who should be the voices of peace and reason choose to be the voices of bigotry and insanity. I’ve never wanted to be proven more wrong.


Jan 02 2008

Define irony

Category: Rantingmav @ 9:29 pm

(colloquial)

Finding out that art.com is blocked by Tardfilter at work while looking for a print of Magritte’s The Son of Man.


Nov 12 2007

Incoherent Ranting: Why Nobody Can Write A Decent Video Player (with bonus Ron Paul)

Category: Ranting, Techmav @ 11:10 pm

Recently I’ve been thinking about building another computer. For various reasons, not limited to but including

  • boredom
  • new/cool fetish
  • junk addiction
  • XBMC can’t play HD
  • XBMC is not a DVR
  • xboxes are way, way end of life
  • xboxes are frightening expensive given the previous fact

See, I figured that my Athlon 64 4400+ would have enough oomph to at least play back 720p HD content. 1080p still seems a little out of reach but it would be a good start. I wanted to play around with LinuxMCE as it seemed to show some promise (even if it is ass-ugly) and give Media Portal another run.

I mean, I got my xbox almost two years ago, and I was pretty late to the party. Those apps I had tried before had 2 years to improve. It’s gotta be all sunshine and rainbows by now, right?

I spent part of yesterday (don’t ask) and (after getting a working power supply from RD) all of this evening working on it, and you know what I found out?

XBMC is so much better than both of the aforementioned products it’s not even fair to compare. LinuxMCE, Mediaportal, it’s like the Special Olympics of media center software.

You know what? Neither of those fucking pieces of worthless shit was capable of browsing a network. LinuxMCE found every single share on my Linux server, individually, and proceeded to bug me about each of them, individually. Then it put them somewhere on that godawful menu and didn’t tell me where. Media Portal isn’t even capable of browsing a network at all, from what I can tell.

Listen, dammit. All I want is a little menu that shows me the whole fucking workgroup, and lets me navigate through systems and shares some sort of traditional folder structure. I should be able to find a fucking file directly on the network. And get this: when I mash some stupid button, it should play! It should be so simple I can even do it when I’m drunk. This shouldn’t be so fucking hard.

Then again, if you’ve ever tried to access Windows shares under Linux maybe you wouldn’t be so surprised.

So I’m not sure why I am.

What I did find is that these software programs are absolutely jam-packed with stupid shit that at best only tangentially relates to actually playing media.

I couldn’t give a flying rat’s ass if it can control lights, alarms, talk to video capture devices by itself, play games, or show me the fucking weather report. (Hint: If you’re not dead, there’s still weather. The sun didn’t bluescreen between 2 and 3 AM.) Perhaps while we’re on track with all these features that are at best gratuitous and at worst silly and useless we could consider improving actual functionality. Or perhaps we can consider adding the ability to feed a dozen Taco Bell burritos into the fucking optical drive and have the goddamn thing fart the Star-Spangled Banner while drinking a beer, blowing some shit up and donating ten bucks to Ron Paul, because in his Rand-esque free-market utopia four dozen competitors would all have media centers that gloriously interoperate and they’ve packed in so many features that they can’t pack in any more actual useful stuff so the only thing that differentiates each one is the amount of stupid, gratuitous features each one can add in. In this world your media center will do everything including control your toaster and remote-flush your toilet so people basically choose the superior product by the color of the box, and don’t forget every sale includes a one dollar donation to the “Right to Life Fund,” because having abortions would be having too much freedom and we wouldn’t want that.

While I’m on the subject of “too much freedom” we should talk about corporate-funded censorship (the opposite of which is curiously called “Net Neutrality,” because apparently “GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF MY GODDAMN PACKETS, YOU SOULLESS CORPORATE FUCKS, BEFORE I SLAUGHTER YOU EN MASSE AND MOUNT YOUR CORRUPT FUCKING HEADS ON PIKES IN THE TOWN SQUARE SO EVERYBODY CAN SEE WHAT WE DO TO EVIL, MONEYGRUBBING CENSORSHIP-SELLING MOTHERFUCKERS” was too on-point.

Wait, how did this turn into a disjointed political rant?

Regardless, XBMC does all the shit I want and it does it all with a controller on five-year-old hardware, and if I could make the fucker play HD video I’d never have to trade up.

Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.


Oct 31 2007

God might hate fags but fucking everybody else hates Fred Phelps

Category: Events, Rantingmav @ 7:46 pm

Earlier today, a Philadelphia court awarded the parents of a Marine who died in Iraq $2.9M in damages. Not from the feds, but rather, from the Westboro Baptist Church, who you probably know as those “God Hates Fags” cocksuckers. They protested his funeral.

I got this news (pathetically, I know) from the Something Awful forums, where a rather spirited discussion (that’s goon for “slapfight”) has broken out over this issue. The debate is, in a nutshell, whether the Phelps’ family’s ability to protest should fall under free speech grounds.

The court’s decision was that the Church couldn’t hide behind their right to protest given the circumstances – mainly, the inflammatory and outrageous nature of their protest got them into this trouble.

A couple weeks back I had occasion to watch Louis Theroux’ BBC show, The Most Hated Family In America, about Phelps and Westboro. (Watch the whole thing here.) I’m actually not that impressed with Theroux as a documentarian, but he does a fairly decent job, and the thing that really surprised me so much was that even though Louis really didn’t come off as that hostile (he came off a little stupid, if anything), Phelps treated him like total shit. I guess that really shouldn’t surprise me, but I guess I figured that if they were willing to give Theroux the free reign they did inside their ‘compound’ that Phelps might be willing to at least talk in a civil manner to him.

One thing that was clear after watching the BBC docu was the absolute brainwashing that has taken place inside the WBC. I mean, this tiny church with a few dozen people really believes that they have some sort of exclusive license to Heaven. It’s so mindbending, so utterly fucked up that you really have to see it to believe it. Even after seeing it, it still feels like TV. Doesn’t seem real. But it does illustrate how easy it is to convince people of anything once you can somehow manage to convince them that they are special, better than everybody else.

At work the standard management line is that we can’t do X, because if we do X for you, we’ll have to do it for everyone. But sometimes, on rare occasions, a decision should be made regardless of whether it is in conflict with the letter of the law.

And as my friend Jeff has been known to say, there are times, albeit rare ones, when “he just needed killin’” should be a valid defense. And while it does bother me, in part, to hear that the Phelps family has finally discovered that it isn’t always possible to hide behind the letter of the law while blatantly violating its spirit, that same realization gives me faith in the law (as well as a little bit of hope) at the same time.


Oct 22 2007

Money-grubbing greedy fucks will be the end of us.

Category: Instructional, Ranting, Techmav @ 10:59 pm

I really should stop watching documentaries.

If you’re one of a zillion or so people on the Net you may have recieved an email that looks an awful lot like this today. Apparently Sara Cho and Michael Lazar, two really dumb motherfuckers who can’t understand the difference between base-2 and base 10, and who, it seems, don’t do any research before buying a product (thus making them typical ignorant American consumer whores,) filed a lawsuit against Seagate. Because of their inability to perform simple calculations that one learns in primary school, think that somehow they are entitled to more drive space than they purchased.

They are wrong.

Continue reading “Money-grubbing greedy fucks will be the end of us.”


Oct 11 2007

The king is dead, long live the king

Category: Personal, Rantingmav @ 8:55 pm

Official: I am not fired, I am not going back on the phone. I will remain in my current position. What happens to my current position remains to be seen. It is functionally impossible for the job to continue in the same way it did with half the staff, so change, in this case, is a given.

Our old model is dead. Long live the new model. Everyone is nervous and management, as usual, isn’t fucking talking. This is the way it’s done even though I don’t know why.

Since I have been given a bit of a reprieve, I am going to attempt to get ready for RHCE in April, and work toward getting the job I actually want.


Oct 05 2007

If you put a pretty wrapping on a bucket of shit

Category: Ranting, Techmav @ 7:25 am

it’s still a bucket of shit.

In a move sure to inspire me to say “Naah naaah naah, I was right you suckers” way too damn much, Microsoft removed the WGA check from IE7 today.

Why, you ask? Because Microsoft has always (and continues to now) depend on piracy for marketshare. Casual piracy of Microsoft products has always been a win-win for them, increasing market share with every Office.2007.Pr0P3r.1337D00DZ.part01.rar. Vista is falling into this trap, as it’s so damn difficult to copy (not that I’ve tried, but seriously, it’s not a huge secret) they are depending on, instead of piracy, new system sales to spur their shit-covered OS on to victory.

But there’s one problem – the PC biz is declining right now. People aren’t replacing their PC’s as often because Office and internet apps aren’t causing the kind of massive slowdowns they did in previous years. Systems are ridiculously fast. And gaming is moving off the box into consoles.

I hope this idiotic move isn’t enough to convince people to actually use IE7, but it might be. Although I really doubt it – those who couldn’t get it before probably moved on to a real browser, like Firefox or Opera, so I don’t know what they really have to gain with this move other than giving me fodder for my crazy conspiracy theories.


Sep 12 2007

“It’s not enough you have all these beautiful acres fenced in for your little game, but you gotta kill me with a golf ball?”

Category: Personal, Rantingmav @ 10:32 pm

(This post was, at least in part, inspired by Dr. Sid Schwab’s post about the 6th anniversary of 9/11. But I don’t need to link that, really, because if you’re a decent human being you already read Surgeonsblog. Plus I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately too. So there.)

I was watching Alias tonight. I’ve never seen the show, so I’ve been watching my way through the DVD’s as Netflix delivers them. Now, without a lot of context, Sydney Bristow getting carried away to a secret government installation, tortured, and eventually threatened with death is pretty SOP for that show. The fact that the installation in question belongs to the US Government only slightly more so. But the fucked-up part is that this is actually happening in real life, except the installation(s) aren’t secret, and (largely) neither are their methods.

Let’s think about post-9/11 life for a minute. Before 9/11, the government tortured innocent people and held them against their will indefinitely. They illegally snooped on phone conversations and Internet traffic. The difference is that after 9/11 not only do they admit it but the people openly sanction it via the Patriot Act and other various assorted Congressional actions. We give away these freedoms willingly, we endorse torture and convince ourselves that habeas corpus isn’t and wasn’t ever important. Inside our country, we’ve given away so much of our freedom at this point that Ben Franklin would probably just say “Fuck it!” and emigrate to Britain were he still alive.

We as a people have become worthless. Perhaps we were already, and 9/11 just acts as a magnifier for it.

And through the passive attitude of our citizens, outside of our country we’ve committed an infinite number of mortal sins. At the end of Falling Down there’s a scene where Michael Douglas’ character realizes that he is, in fact, the bad guy. Unless you’re the most innocent or most sociopathic of people, you can’t help but feel for him in that moment. He didn’t do anything really bad. He was really frustrated and finally just snapped. He was a good man once. He left a lot of blood in his wake, but really, those people he killed were all assholes and sometimes some people just need killin’.

We invaded a country under false pretenses. We killed an unmeasurable number of civilians, women and children. We spent months looking for weapons of mass destruction that our leaders admit now weren’t there. We started an unwinnable war, a holy war; bombed, murdered, and then declared victory. And we sent our own citizens to their deaths over completely false pretenses.

At what point do we realize we’re the bad guy? Where has our humanity gone? Why in the holy everliving fuck wasn’t Bush impeached on the fucking spot following the 9/11 Commission’s investigation?

Thing is, we’re the law, too. There’s no Robert Duvall to show up and tell us we’re the bad guy. And, this being the day after 9/11, there was no shortage yesterday of false accusations – apparently, you’re not a patriot or even a decent human being if you don’t support holy war. Guess that makes me a complete sociopath.

It is our lack of compassion, lack of understanding of freedom, mass adherence to religious dogmas, willingness to kowtow to any demand without quantifying its rationale, and willingness to exterminate a people that we don’t understand that is destroying us. The terrorists didn’t need to do anything after 9/11. They were smarter than we gave them credit for. They blew up the Towers and we took care of the rest.

At the end of the aforementioned Alias episode, Sydney is finally tricked into revealing her secret by the jailers torturing a cellmate in front of her. They figured her out: she didn’t respond to torture, but she would always respond empathetically. If we had a Sydney for every idiotic redneck fuck that makes “Let’s just nuke the Middle East into a big sheet of glass” remark, perhaps we could dig ourselves out of this shit pit.

It’d also be way easier on the eyes.


Jul 24 2007

My boss came back this week

Category: Rantingmav @ 10:31 pm

Fuck


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