Sep 29
Motivation sucks
You know what? That whole idea bout not needing to know exactly why I’m here is totally full of shit. I really, really need to know why I’m here and where I’m going, especially since it is VERY, VERY LIKELY at this point that I will have to go back to Twin Falls SOON (as in, probably after this year.) That is, unless my parents change something really really fast. I have a whole list of ideas but as per usual, my dad does everything he can to not make any goddamn decisions, and my mom is reluctant to do anything at all because she’s basically doing everything alone.
God dammit.
Pan to a shot of our hero hiking his heavy ass up to Admin again for math class. I’ve got no damn clue why I’m doing all of this shit, and it’s becoming less and less relevant as it looks like I’m probably not going to get to finish school.
Not to mention that my CS prof is being an ignorant ass, and so I’m totally confused as to what in the hell is going on in that class. And I’m less and less interested in what I’m doing, and I don’t know what in the hell is wrong with me.
God, I would so trade somebody my iBook for a good night’s rest right now. I want to drive home for no reason than to get one good night’s sleep in my real bed at Taylor Street.
And for all these reasons, I just can’t seem to get my shit in gear to get anything done. And I seem to be caring less and less about getting my shit together.
Oh yeah, apathy sucks too.